10 days into the New Year & my first posts of the year.

It's amazing how things work and come into place. It's also the beauty of casual conversation of a simple, "How are you?"

Today at work I had the pleasure of engaging in a conversation with a co-worker who is the sweetest, happiest person from what I can see, but we all fight our own personal battles. Her battle will be private but I will use what I took from our conversation to help others because of her conversation and talking to her gave me the courage to speak on things most people will not. I know those that really know me are probably like" WTF, is she going to say?"

Well here goes nothing :)


Social Media if you're not careful can kill self-esteem and dreams. For instance, you see someone at their very best on social media. No one posts the real shit that goes on in their life and with today how judgmental and heartless people are I don't blame them at all or I see why people are afraid to ask for help. We have to acknowledge that everything we see half the time is a front for others.

No one is going to post how their car was repossessed, how they struggle to pay bills, how they run their credit cards up to buy shit they can barely pronounce just to impress someone, how they had to work 3 different jobs to afford their dream trip, how they share clothing amongst their friends, how they take care of their kids that are rarely posted, how they are trying to build themselves back up, how they try to live right and all they receive is bad news, in and out of court, bad breakups and so much more. There are a lot of things that go on in peoples real lives that will never be shared on Social Media.

So before you doubt yourself take everything I said into consideration. There is no set age that you're supposed to have a child, no set age that you're supposed to have that job or that house. Take your time and be thankful for everything that your life has to offer and try to find the message in every situation.

I took a break from blogging and poetry because I lost my passion. I lost my passion because I found myself comparing my work to others. Comparing their success to where I wanted to be but not looking on how they got there and what things they went through to be successful. I had to take a break and be honest with myself that I am rushing things.

So if you follow me on Instagram you know I've deleted all of my pictures and started completely over. Why? It didn't feel real and I got so wrapped in what I wanted to be I stunted my growth based off what I was viewing as "successful" or "beautiful" etc... I believe some of us get so consumed in likes, certain poses, hashtags, how many followers you have, comparing yourself to other peoples pages that we lose a piece of ourselves.

I wish I was this humbled before experiencing many things that I did. If I just knew my value. True happiness comes from yourself. The way we so carelessly root for others, we have to do the same for ourselves.

So if you have to take a break, take that damn break. You don't have to be an open book to people but you should always be honest with yourself.


Side note: You are enough! You may think you posted a bomb ass picture but your likes are not adding up... WHO FUCKING CARES! AS LONG AS YOU LIKE IT AND THE MOMENT WAS REAL.